歌手: eminem
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
Lately I really feel like
最近
I'm rolling for delph like Philly
我感觉自己就像
I feel like I'm losing control of myself
实话说
I sincerely
我感觉自己正在失去控制
I apologize if all that I sound like
如果这听起来像是我在抱怨
Is I'm complaining
那我道歉
But life keeps on complicating
但生活依旧很复杂
An' I'm debating
我心中生出念头
On leaving this world this evening
要离开这个世界,这个晚上
Even my girls
连我的女儿
Can see I'm grievin' I try and hide it
都可以看出我很悲伤，我试着隐藏这种情感
But I can't
但我不能
Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty
为什么我总是去表现得很高大
When inside I'm dying
在我内心深处，我就快死了
I am finally realizing I need help
我终于意识到我需要帮助
I can't do it by myself too weak
我自己一人办不到，我太软弱了
2 weeks I've been having ups and downs
这两周我的生活一直有起伏
Going through peaks and valleys
经历高峰和低谷
Dilly dallying
延宕拖延
Around with the idea
脑袋里充满着
Of ending the sh*t right here
结束这种生活的想法
I'm hatin' my reflection
我厌恶自己的反应
I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors
我在家里踱步，试着和镜中的自己对峙
I can't stand what I look like yeah
我受不了自己这样子
I look fat but what do I care
我看起来有些胖，但我关心的是什么
I give a f**k only thing I fear is Hailie
我所关心的，我唯一担心的，是hailie
I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her
我害怕如果闭上眼睛他会出现在我眼前
Sh*t
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
I lock myself in the bedroom
我把自己锁在卧室、浴室
Bathroom nappin' at noon
在中午酣睡
Yeah dad's in a bad mood
是的,爸爸心情不好的
He's always snappin' at you
他总是打你
Marshall what happened at you
arshall你到底怎么了
You can't stop with these pills
你不能停止吃这些药丸
And you've fallen off with your skills
你的说唱技巧已经离你而去
And your own fans are laughin' at you
你的歌迷都在嘲笑你
It become a problem
你这么娘们根本解决不了问题
You're too p**sy to tackle get up
起来
Be a man stand
像个男人一样,站起来
A real man woulda had this sh*t handled
一个真正的男子汉能把这些统统解决
Know you just had your heart
我知道你的心刚刚经历过无限的痛苦
Ripped out and crushed
他们说
They say Proof just flipped out
我最好的兄弟
Homie just swift out and bust
死了
Nah it ain't like Doody to do that
这根本不是我兄弟会干的事
He wouldn't f**kin' shoot at
不应该向任何人开枪的
No-body he fights first
他不该先和别人动手
But dwellin' on it only
但是纠结与这些只会让
Makes the night worse
夜晚更糟糕
Now I'm poppin Vic's
现在我只需要
Perks and Methadone pills
安眠药
Yeah Em tight verse you killed it
把握好你的节奏，让它无懈可击
F**kin' drug dealers hang
不管你有什么要求
Around me like "yes man"
他们都会答,是
And they gon' do whatever I says when
当我开了口
I says it
他们什么事情都可以做
It's in their best interest to
只为了追求
Protect their investment
他们的金钱
And I just lost my f**kin' best friend
我失去了我最好的朋友
So f**k it I guess then
所以我想
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
Don't know what I'm going through
我不知道我经历了什么
But I just keep on going through changes
但我还不断在改变
My friends just can't understand this new me
我的朋友们不理解这个新的我
That's understandable man
伙计，这我能理解
But just think how bananas you'd be
但想想你曾经是怎样的一坨狗屎
You'd be an animal too
如果你也被名声所困
If you were trapped in this fame
就像被关在动物园的笼子里
And caged in it like a zoo
你也一样会像只动物
And everybody's lookin' at you
所有人都看着你
What you want me to do
你想要让我怎么做
I'm startin' to live like a recluse
于是我隐退了
And the truth is
开始新的生活
Fame startin' to give me an excuse
我的名气变得空前的低
To be at a all time low
这给了我一个借口
I sit alone in my home theatre
我独自坐在我的家庭影院前
Watchin' the same damn DVD
看着同一部DVD
Of the first tour the last tour
第一次巡演，最后一次巡演
He was still alive
他还活着
And it hurt sore fast forward sleepin'
这揭开了我的伤疤，快进
Pills'll make me feel alright
只有安眠药能让我觉得好受一点
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
如果后半夜我还在床上辗转难眠
I just take a couple more
我会多吃一倍的安眠药
Yeah you're motherf**kin' right
你说的太对了
I ain't slowin' down for no one
我不会为任何人放慢脚步
I am almost homeward bound
我马上就要到家了
Almost in a coma yeah homie come on
几乎处于昏迷
Don't look now
你就快到了
Daddy don't you die on me daddy
爸爸，你死了我会很难过的
Better hold your ground
爸爸，好好坚持下去
F**k don't I know the sound of that voice
我听见你说话的声音了
Yeah baby hold me down
好，宝贝，抱紧爸爸
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
Wake up in the hospital full of tubes
在医院醒来，身上插满了管子
Plus somehow I'm pullin' through
终于度过了危险期
Swear when I come back
我发誓当我回来的时候
I'm a be bulletproof
我会穿上防弹衣
I'm a do it just for Proof
我这样做只是为了证明
I think I should state a few
我觉得我应该说些东西
Facts cause I may not get
事实上
A chance again to say the truth
因为我可能不会再有机会说出事实了
Sh*t it just hit me that what
如果我没挺过来
If I would notta made it through
这该怎么办
I think about the things
我想着那些
I would never got to say to you
永远不打算对你说出的话语
I'd never get to make it right
我从来都没有好好表达过
So here's what I came to do
所以现在我决定做些什么
Hailie this one is for you
hailie这是给你的
Whitney and Alaina too
hitney还有Alaina，你们也一样
I still love your mother
我依旧爱着你妈妈
That'll never change
这是永远不会改变的
Think about her every day
我每一天都很想她
We just could never get it together
但是我们可能永远无法复原了
Hey wish there was a better way
嘿，希望能有一个更好的方式
For me to say it
让我来说出它
But I swear on everything
有太多的东西
I'd do anything for her on anyday
需要
There are just too many things
解释
To explain when it rains
既然我已开口
Guess it pours yes it does
就让我把所有话语都倾泻出来
Wish there wasn't any pain
我希望我从没有经历这些痛苦
But I can't pretend there ain't
但我不能假装这些都没发生过
I ain't placin' any blame
我这不是在指责你
I ain't pointin' fingers
也没有把矛头指向你
Heaven knows there never been a saint
老天知道的，这世界有从来没有完人
I know it just feels like
我知道
We just pissed away our history
是我们挥霍了我们的过往曾经
But just today
但就在今天
I looked at your picture
当我看着你的照片
Almost hate to say
我不得不说
I miss you self consciously
在我的潜意识里我一直都思念着你
Wish it didn't end this way
我希望我们从没有结束
But I just had to get away
但不知为什么
Don't know why
我不得不逃避这情感
I don't know what else to say I guess
我不知道还有什么其他可说，我想我
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化